Together with the daily routine, returned the cold reality of being stuck in the future. The vacuum left after the disappearance of the excitement for being in space, made my daily life harder to deal. I started to think a lot more about my missed opportunity to return home. Although I had no regret on the choice I had made, somehow deep down, there was a doubt that I had made the wrong decision. Choosing to travel in space instead of returning to my old reality and staying with Luna instead of returning to Sophie, who had most likely moved on, was without a shadow of guilt the right thing to do. Despite my conviction of doing the right thing, I had an inevitable longing feeling about my old reality. In addition, the love for my family was pushing me to regret the decision to stay. A small part of me felt guilty for not using the opportunity to return home, whilst the rest of me was so in love with Luna, creating this way a conflict between my desire to stay and the wish to return home.
