The pain seems to never go away. I’ve upped my use of coke, and how Jesse hasn’t realized that I’m using is beyond me. I guess when you love someone, you don’t see all the bad shit about them. I stopped using the day Jesse told me I was going to be a father, but now my addiction to coke has increased to a dangerously high level, physically and financially. I make enough to afford my addiction, but I’m starting to use Jesse’s money to pay bills and I’ve been forgetting shit. Luckily, I made friends with a local distributor and that led to making friends with the head of the local operation. I told him I would like to hookup my friends with this cut of coke too, so I buy larger quantities. I’ve become the local go-to for the people I work with and know. I have to help support my habit somehow. I wasn’t ready to be a father, but in that two months I thought I was going to be one, I was really looking forward to it.
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