At least I don’t think she does. It’s very unlike me to act like such a stalker. I don’t know what she’s doing. She’s just been sitting in her car as if she’s waiting on someone. The last six months of my life has felt so empty and dull. The time, although brief, we spent together was the best time of my life. I realized that I was falling in love with her, that I am in love with her. I was such a douche. I don’t know that I’d blame her if she never forgives me. In the past, I’ve always made poor decisions, and it looks like that is going to be the story of my life. Ian has the best girl in the world, and he finds a way to screw it up. Lindsey doesn’t count because she was a bitch. She was a bad distraction, a sign of my weakness. I should have never let her come between me and Gabby. Stupid hormonal teenager that I was gave into peer pressure. I know I broke Gabby’s heart. I didn’t understand at the time how special she really was. I run my fingers through my hair as I accept that I let the first love of my life slip away, shattering her.
