I knew it was going to be painful, but I never imagined this emptiness; it’s worse than when I left him to come to Vegas. Maybe it has to do with him saying the words “I love you.” I had a feeling he felt that deeply for me, but now that it’s out in the open, things are changing. I’m still scared out of my mind and don’t think I deserve him, but at the same time I want things to move forward. I want to say, I love you back to him, to feel free for once. It’s just going to take me a little longer, until I am positively sure it’s the right thing. I know…I don’t make any fucking sense. I can’t explain my actions, my feelings, my mistakes. I just know the fear is there, but now slowly disappearing. I haven’t heard from Wayne, since that night. I’m better off not talking with him anyways. When I am ready, he’ll know it. I did get a nice surprise from June, though. She came the next day, wanting to see me perform. I was completely shocked, nervous and thrilled all at the same time.
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