My skin feels too tight for my body and it has nothing to do with the dry climate. I’m a little irritated with Rowdy for not kissing me goodnight. Okay, that’s a lie. I’m not irritated. I’m flat-out pissed. What was that all about anyway? Is he punishing me because I won’t have sex with him? Does he think I’m enjoying this? If people could die from sexual frustration, I’d be dead. I’m twenty years old and have never had an orgasm. Something I never should have confessed to Ethan. I was trying to make him feel better about not ‘meeting my needs,’ but instead he became obsessed with the idea of being my ‘first.’ I think I’ve been close a couple of times. When Rowdy and I used to make out, I’d get this intense feeling deep inside my lower belly. But Rowdy always stopped and asked if I was okay. Ugh. Just thinking about it is making me horny. I’m tempted to try to take care of it myself, but that’s never worked either. All it does is frustrate me. I need to get out of this house.
