Having ordered my usual, I keep my coat on and take my favourite seat facing the ocean. Every few days, I’ve been going into one of those moods where the whole world feels bleak and nothing will ever change, so I figure I might as well come here and whip out my laptop in order to hide behind the safety of my screen. Despite maintaining this confident air, I’m running scared in the virtual world, preferring to live through my laptop so I don’t have to feel the full force of rejection. Unfortunately, when you’re in the business of not taking any risks you don’t make much in the way of progress. The usual pattern of events is that having ascertained the nature of the job from a hundred word advert, I then hide behind a generic ‘cut and paste’ email so I never have to feel my heart quicken in nervousness, not even when reading their automated rejection response back. Worse still, when I do get a confirmed interview, my first reaction is one of feeling really quite put out.
