Everything happened so fast... I just figured that with my virginity gone, there was no point in denying Cole what he wanted. As for the drugs, well, that one's obvious. I looked forward to the high it gave me and I welcomed the relief—the escape from all the bad stuff. I tried a couple of other drugs, even a few of the hard-core kind, but it became evident that ecstasy was my drug of choice. Cole and I got high together and I found that Cole was really fun to be around. An ecstasy loaded Cole meant a light hearted and playful Cole. We danced, we partied—and of course had sex. It turned out he'd been right on that last one, sex was very enjoyable. I remember losing myself to Cole's lifestyle. I grew numb to the guilt and to everyone around me but him. I didn't realize any of this until Noah brought me back to reality again a few weeks later. *** It is Halloween weekend and I have no plans whatsoever. I'm already bored, and I've been home from school less than an hour and the weekend hasn't even officially started yet.
