My eyes caught my bed in the open room apartment, but I denied myself the comfort of going to it so I could fall apart and mourn my friend. I had never fully appreciated how integral Rafftery had become to me in my life and now that he was gone there was such a gaping hole left behind. I pushed away a tear and strode over to my closet and ripped the doors open roughly. I yanked hung up clothes out and threw them on the floor as I leafed through them. None of what I wore day to day was going to fit the picture of how I must appear to my father. I was coming to the end of the line when I hesitated on a sundress. It had been an impulse buy two years ago. I had actually been going to take a vacation and rent a beach house, but a double homicide involving celebrities had intervened and I hadn’t gone. I’d forgotten I still had the dress. Its bright color and summer charm was the last thing I wanted to put on right now, but it was just right for what I needed. I stripped down and slipped it on over my undergarments and then realized I needed a different kind of bra for this dress.
