I can’t drive all the way up, or Kyle will know I’m coming. If he knows I’m coming, he will hide, or he will do something. I need to be able to tell him that it’s just me, and convince him to take me back. I wouldn’t take me back. I would want to kill me. Sometimes I want to kill me. I pull in as far as I can, but that isn’t very far. There are too many trees. The car isn’t hidden at all. It’s just a little ways off the road. Anybody who was looking would find it. That means I can’t leave it here for long, not with Vinnie and Lee down there, not with Vinnie still having his phone. I have to get them and then . . . I don’t know where we’ll go, but we’ll go somewhere. Another cabin, another river. Anywhere they won’t find us. I run up the hill. My feet pound on pavement. I’m carrying my bag over one shoulder, and it’s slamming against me.
