I can feel my blood thirst rising so I put a couple of bags in the microwave to warm them. That’s when I finally notice it. For the last few days, the blood thirst has been riding me harder than normal. I am sucking down three times as much blood as I usually do. I am also losing my control in public more often than I ever have before. Maybe my feelings for Christien are some kind of reaction to my increased blood thirst. I will have to remember to ask Roman if he has ever heard of this sort of thing happening with vampires before. I suck down the blood quickly, grab the dress I left downstairs the other day, and head upstairs to change. Unable to decide on an outfit to wear, I choose to keep the dress I have on and just redo my makeup and hair. Within minutes, I am downstairs and armed in the usual getup. I stare at my reflection in the mirror by the door. I am not sure I can do this. Maybe Rome is right. What happens if I am not strong enough to follow through with it? I don’t think I can kill Christien.
