I know what I have to say to him but I am unsure of the approach. I try to play out some scenarios in my head but really what do I say? Oh yeah, your past is haunting me and I can’t get away from it. I still love you but we can’t be together. If things were different, there would be no doubts or fears or anything to stand in our way. I mean seriously, how do I explain this to him? I love him more than anything. I love him so much it hurts. But is love supposed to hurt this much? It’s not like I’ve had a stable family to go by. “You’re quiet today.” Lucas glances at me, eyes filled with concern. “I’m just thinking.” I look away, watching out my window at the trees and houses that passes us by. My heart rate quickens, every inch we get closer to our stop. I’m not sure how it is going to go down but I know I need to get it out. It’s been eating me alive. I just want to be honest. That’s what love is about, right? He stops the car by the river and shuts off the engine.
