A large part of it—most of it—was due to his state of high arousal and the psychotic break his system had had with his mind when he broke off his pursuit of completion rather than finishing what he had started. His system was still screaming for release and threatening to explode. His brain was wrestling with his desires and trying to figure out why it had seemed like the best course to stop when everything inside of him was screaming don’t stop. Had she indicated that she was willing to fight to the death to prevent culmination? He certainly did not recall that she had. In point of fact—now that he thought about it really hard—it seemed to him that she had been completely open to the possibility. Not eager of course, but then that was not to be expected—unless it was eagerness to cut one’s throat! She had not struggled, though, and she had not been dead or unconscious.
