~ Sue Miller, While I Was Gone ~ JULIEN Fuck it to hell! The ride from the hospital did nothing to calm me down. In fact, I was more upset now than I was before. I was furious! I could not tell you whom I was the angriest with. Her, for repeatedly running away from me; or myself for letting one woman cause so much havoc in my life. When the hell did I become this… soft?! I didn’t want to go home. The memories of Emily at the house would surely come rushing back, and hit me squarely in the chest. The mere thought of her, laid out on my bed or propped up on the desk in my office, pierced my heart. I needed time to put this woman behind me and move on. I reached for my cellphone, which I had tossed onto the passenger seat after climbing in, and I dialed Shane. If there was any day I needed my younger brother, today was that day! I wanted to clear my mind, and for that, I needed alcohol. “Well, if it isn’t my confused brother!
