Wisdom 3:1   I don’t think it was entirely accurate to say I was only a shell of a human being after Rafael left. I couldn’t deny I was upset and distraught, not to mention very confused. I was also extremely hurt and a little angry. Because he had made me believe in him, and just like everyone else, he had let me down. The anger I felt largely at him and myself helped the most. That was what helped get me through each day. But more than anything, Rafael’s absence made me realize just how empty and boring my life had been. Each day was a monotonous repetition of the last: school, dinner, studying, watching Colton and Grace. I hadn’t realized how lonely I’d actually been. I had friends, yes, but none that actually knew all my secrets, as Rafael had. None that seemed to know exactly what I was thinking all the time, as Rafael had. That first day, of course, I scrambled to find my cell phone to call Rafael, sure that this couldn’t be happening. And there I had discovered the cruelest surprise of all.
