She stared at a blue bottle buzzing ineffectively against the window and thought, my baby would have been due this week. Instead it’s a whole month since he died. Will I never stop hurting? There were footsteps on the stairs and hurriedly she reached for the magazine May had brought and found herself reading about whether an unmarried girl should give herself to her soldier sweetheart when on leave. She was reminded of those times when she and Matt wanted each other madly and had had such hopes for the future, but everything had changed now. She had not spoken to him since the baby had died, blaming him for the loss of her child. Why could he have not told her about Abby before? Then it would not have come as such a shock. Being knocked on the head and losing part of your memory was something you would not easily dismiss, and yet he had never mentioned it. Why? Because he felt guilty about the whole episode! At least with Rob she knew for sure there had been little more than a few kisses.
