We spent nearly all day together yesterday and he asked me to sleep over. I think we both lost our bet, but we’ve kept things, mostly, platonic. It bothers me that he keeps running hot and cold with me. I feel like he doesn’t know what he wants from me, but he wants to keep me on the hook. I’m feeling out of control and I don’t know how to get things back to where I feel comfortable. ~2/23/02** Marissa got home from John’s relatively early two mornings later. She was disheartened by the change in their relationship. John kept his promise in terms of not wanting sex, but he was still interested in making out and things that were decidedly beyond the realm of simple friendship. Marissa was disgusted at herself for wanting to prolong that connection with him. She wondered why, after six months, she still had feelings for him, but she wasn’t in love with him. She questioned why it was still so important to her that they be together and why she suddenly felt so lost.Marissa booted up her laptop when she returned home and started to type up an email to one of her professors about an upcoming assignment.
