It’d be nice to have Jace’s soothing and reassuring presence around, but I’m not sure if his presence still has that effect on me. Everyone’s heard about Brockton’s amazing wins at Districts, and the news stations are talking about our chances at winning the State team titles. They think it’s a forgone conclusion that Ryan and I will win the individual titles. Kids in school are actually paying attention to cross and all my teachers have congratulated me on Districts and wished me luck for State. It was flattering for about two seconds. Now, every mention of State just makes me want to throw up. I’ve never felt this much anxiety in my life. My muscles are tight all week at practice, and I know that Coach can tell. It’s not fatigue or injury, like he was worried about, but the weight of people’s expectations that have made running less than enjoyable.
