She picked me up to have tea with her mom at The Drake Hotel downtown. I felt sort of foolish dressed up like this to sit in a stuffy hotel restaurant drinking tea and eating delicate, crumbly cookies while we discussed baby names and Diaper Genies. Secretly, I was lucky to have such support and enthusiasm from Mrs. Kelly. My mom was trying…she really was. But, she was focused more on the practical side of things rather than the excitement. Sometimes it was nice to be surrounded by excitement and enthusiasm. I was so scared all the time…afraid I'd be terrible at motherhood. Afraid I'd drop the baby, forget to feed the baby, forget to change the baby, run out of diapers right in the middle of the night, not be able to nurse properly…the list went on and on. But, when I was with Auden and her mom, I was able to forget those fears, if only for a little while. I got to think about the special moments that Mrs. Kelly told me about…the first time he'd smile, laugh and say a word. I couldn't wait for those moments.
