The most wonderful night of my life. Still, I can’t shake this feeling of dread that weighs heavier and heavier on me. I know if I don’t do something right now something more horrible than I can imagine will happen. I try pushing myself forward. I need to tell my mom the good news. She’ll be pleased that the Underground is finally gaining some traction. Even if I’m doing it for my own reasons and not theirs anymore, I’ve still accomplished what they wanted me to. Evie chose me. But not just chose. She loves me. At least I’m pretty sure she does. If I’d let her say it, she would have. I grin like the fool I am. She loves me. And I love her. It hits me like a brick wall. She loves me, and the feeling that something horrible is going to happen because she does, feels like a punch to the gut. I almost literally can’t breathe from the tension around my chest pinching tighter and tighter with every breath I take.
