Sebastian wasn’t online when I first sat down at the computer, so I busied myself posting some news about the movie and chatting with Patricia so that I wouldn’t think about it. After about an hour, I saw Sebastian come online. Immediately he sent me a chat message. Imsebastiangray: Hey Ash…. Quick question for you. As long as it’s not about the photo or what I look like, I’m good. Quickly, I typed, Sure, what’s up? Imsebastiangray: I’ve been invited to a fan event in September, and I wondered if you wanted to join me? I think it would be fun, and I’d really like to finally meet you. My insides did this twisty thing as I tried to get myself under control. Holy Shit! No! No! No! We weren’t supposed to meet… we couldn’t meet. For a second, I was visualizing throwing myself off the nearest cliff. Ashley: Uh… where is this event? Imsebastiangray: In New York. After the event we could catch a couple of plays together. It’ll be a blast! At this moment, I truly hated myself.
