My injuries receded, and I fell into a deep lassitude born from physical exhaustion. Betimes I slept behind a locked door, loaded revolver by my side. When I woke I made another injection and watched the sun move across the arch of the sky. Inward flooded a bliss, and later, fear. Through a blunted consciousness arrived concerns for my fate. Besides the transgressions I’d committed and the failure of my life, now the fatal substance had returned and clutched me in its grip. Soon all other considerations would dwindle and it’d be the drug alone that I’d seek, its peace. I looked at my wounds from the automobile collision and a purple bruise on my chest that described part of the wheel’s arc. Later the hotel room took on the dimensions of a prison cell. Unsettling fancies: a warrant out for my arrest, everything known to the world. Footsteps in the hallway were the police come to take me away. The wide-open brown eyes of the man in the saloon ’car stared at me as I pulled the trigger and plunged the hypodermic syringe home.
