Sparky left a few hours ago on club business and I have loved the peace on my own. After refolding my new clothes again, I cherish everything I bought yesterday. It seems silly to be this happy but this is the first time I’ve been to buy not only items I needed but items I wanted. Books that will never be ripped from my hands and tore in half, cosmetics that will never be destroyed because they attract attention from other men. Tommy never approved, he preferred me with as little self-esteem as possible. An hour ago I curled up on Sparky’s small couch and began reading one of my favourite books. I was barely into the first chapter when I began daydreaming of what it will be like when I leave here and find myself my own place. I imagined a small apartment, nothing too big or fancy, just somewhere I can call my own. After my spending yesterday, I still have a few thousand dollars left to start with and with caution, I’m going to make every dollar count for something. Whilst choosing curtains for my imaginary new place, Sparky comes through the door A lot of the tension he wore this morning has faded and makes him more attractive.
