She longed for him to kiss her again, to feel his lips against hers and his hands on her skin. She floated in a sleepy haze of desire for this man she'd known for only a few days. Then a memory of Colin drifted through her mind, and the feelings for Jonathan were washed away by a surge of guilt and shame, jolting her awake. How could she be attracted to Jonathan when she loved Colin? He'd been her childhood sweetheart, her soul mate, the only man she'd ever wanted to be with. Yet as she tried to picture Colin's face, she couldn't. Breathless with distress, she grabbed her phone from the nightstand and scrolled to her precious photographs of Colin and Josh. She loved them both so much. If she forgot them and moved on, it would be as though they'd never existed, and she couldn't let that happen. She scrubbed a hand over her eyes. Being with Jonathan confused her, leaving her mind in a tangle. She trusted him and enjoyed his company, but she didn't want him to push her husband and son out of her thoughts—especially not at this time of year when she should be remembering them more than ever.
