My mind seemed less cluttered, especially since I didn't have to lie to Sam if he questioned me. Sorry, Sam, I joked to myself, recalling a previous incident. I can't make it out to lunch because I'm meeting my grandma for tea. Maybe tomorrow? I would then proceed to go eat with Jack at some fancy, upscale place and be back to work five minutes early. And then, I'd be embarrassed when I later forgot my story. It was a little ridiculous sometimes. No wonder Sam was suspicious... I actually wanted to brag about the things I did with Jack, so keeping them buried only served to frustrate me. This relationship was providing me with something like clarity, even if it wasn't perfect. I didn't really have anyone outside of Jesse and Laura whom I could even mention him to, at least not yet. At night, however, I went to bed filled with bittersweetness with regard to my decision. As far as my emotions were concerned, Jack wasn't going anywhere.
