A glimpse of backs, a flash of arms. Bare feet pulling on white socks and canvas pumps. Navy-blue uniform skirts being taken off, white gym skirts being put on. The smooth skin of pink or tanned thighs, some of them freckled. But it was as though he wasn’t really seeing any of this. He didn’t even feel the thrill of transgression. Why not, if he was enjoying a sight the other boys didn’t have? Wasn’t this a pleasure only he and Eduardo shared after discovering this secret place? Weren’t they in the forbidden tower again? Hadn’t they managed to climb on to the school roof without being seen, among all its rat droppings, dust, bits of cloth, electric cables and building debris. Wasn’t the girls’ changing room down below? Weren’t they spying on them through the grating of the ventilation shaft? And yet. And yet. He wasn’t really there. He could see girls. Young girls. But he was thinking about a woman. Her. Anita. Aparecida. Without saying a word, he turned to his friend, who was staring downwards.
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