Right then, I knew this was the end with Xavier. He said, “You know, today, for the first time, I really think you believe what you’ve told me.” Was he kidding me? Did he think that I’d made all of this up before? He stood still, as if he was waiting for me to say more and when I didn’t, he pressed his lips against my cheek with a kiss that told me I was right. Whatever we had between us was over. Then, he turned and walked away. I was glad that he was gone. There really wasn’t room for him in my life. So, if that’s how I really felt, then why did I feel so empty and alone as I watched him walk away? Chapter 10 I was beginning to have my doubts. For the first time, I began to doubt what God said to me. Maybe doubt wasn’t the right word. Maybe the right word was wonder. Because after being with Xavier, that’s what I began doing.
