Lately, she couldn’t help but secretly think that he might ask her to marry him. He had been acting a little strange for the past couple of days and she hoped that was the reason why. She harbored no doubts about her feelings for him. She loved John! She loved him more than she ever dreamed of loving anyone. Soaking in the bathtub, Randa was thinking about how John had made it hard for her to decide whether it was better to be thoroughly and truly loved by someone or to love someone truly and thoroughly. Randa knew that both choices were definitely astounding and she was grateful that she might not ever be able to decide. Sometimes she daydreamed about being married to John and the kind of life they would have. She loved the idea of having children and she knew that John would be a wonderful father and husband. She hoped that Buck would sell his businesses on the North Slope, so John would be home all of the time, but if he didn’t, Randa knew that she could contend with John’s absences.
