However, before coming to the records themselves, she advised Grace that she should set aside time to study Judaism before meeting her new-found cousin and his extended orthodox-Jewish family. She then explained how the organization's records were compiled and stored, and that sadly in some cases material that had once been held was now lost. The details of the Manns' fostering of the Bechhöfer twins were there in the records, and particularly poignant for Grace were the claims that the couple made for financial assistance during the early days of Eunice's illness. At one point in the meeting, as if in the distance, Grace heard Heather ask: 'Do I call you Grace or do I call you Susi?' Grace's immediate reaction was to reply: 'Grace, of course.' But then she paused, acutely aware of two things: first, she was not who she thought she was; second, she had a choice in the matter of her identity. 'Maybe Susi-Grace, in the circumstances,' she answered. By the time she got home that evening she had made up her mind: Grace was to be abandoned without further delay.
