It’s such a relief to see her getting back to her old self. But all the lovey dovey shit is getting to me. It’s not that I want it for myself, I don’t, honestly who has time for all that? Bray treats Stella like a freaking princess. It’s kinda cute really. He takes lunch to her office like three times a week, like they don’t see each other enough? They live together for God’s sake. I suppose it’s sweet that they want to spend all their time together. They really are in love. In love, I sometimes wonder what that would be like. I don’t think I’m the kind of person who will find it. I’m pretty sure you need a heart to fall in love. And mine died a long time ago. Dexter I can’t believe I just did that. I’ve thought about telling my old man where he could shove his money for the longest time. To actually do it, God I feel weightless, like nothing can hold me down, I could fly if I had wings. I can start living the life I want. Not that I’m really sure what that is anymore, but it’s time to find out I guess.
