daughter who wanted to emulate her—Sunshine was told by her mother she would have to be able to seduce men with her abilities and not her looks. She had been surprised, for until the moment her mother told her this, she had seen in the mirror a face as beautiful as her mother’s and grandmother’s. Her father always called her “his beautiful Sunny girl” and she had believed him.After her mother awoke her to the truth and after the cruelty of her classmates confirmed it, Sunshine asked for ballet lessons. She asked for language lessons and she went to the kitchen where her grandmother’s five-star chef gave her cooking lessons.If she couldn’t be beautiful, she would be smart. So she excelled in her studies and her first lover was her college French physics professor who found her enthusiasm exhausting; at least that is what he said once he had to break it off with her because his wife grew suspicious of his waning libido.There had been plenty of men to take up where he left off, but after she found out her mother was the reason she was suddenly so desirable, she completely stopped dating and having sex because how could she trust anyone anymore.This would be her first time in awhile and she could feel herself going through the motions of being a seductress as she walked towards Yoon’s bedroom leaving articles of clothing for him to follow. Maybe that is why the butterflies were having a field day in her stomach and her heart felt like it was in her throat, choking off her air supply.What else could it be? Her sexual abilities were something she’d always been sure of and confident in. She was aware that no matter how unattractive you were men seemed to not notice in bed. In bed she heard words of adoration and time and again she was told she was the sexiest and most beautiful woman they’d ever been with.Sunshine knew that was a lie. They probably had plenty of more beautiful women than her, but they never had one that so earnestly wanted to please them in bed. They never had one that made the entire experience about them. That was Sunshine’s gift. She had a body she was very proud of. She sure it was God’s way of making up for the average features she possessed.Sex was something she could do without really feeling anything. When men thought they had you where they wanted you, they could be selfish lovers, assuming that their needs and pleasure automatically took care of yours without any effort on their part. She couldn’t count the times she had “oh’ed”
