Ever since Titus had suggested she rent her house to Samuel, her mind had been swirling with unanswered questions. She’d been praying about it, too, but was still unsure what to do. It would be hard to leave the roomy home she’d lived in since she was a young girl and move into the small guest house on Bonnie’s property. Of course, Esther reasoned, if Mom and Dad agreed to rent their house to Samuel, that would mean more money coming in to help with Dan’s medical expenses. As Esther’s thoughts shifted gears, she wrote in her journal: I’m confused about so many things. Even though Bonnie later explained that Samuel hadn’t invited her to join them at the pond until she’d shown up there with her dog, it hurt my feelings. I’m concerned that there might be something besides friendship between them. Is it my imagination, and am I the only one who sees it? Would Bonnie be willing to give up modern things and join the Amish faith? Could Samuel give up his plain way of life to go English?
