It almost did. Luckily, Garvan lightened up after sharing the biggest glimpse into his soul that I’d seen up until then. The very things he feared as a vampire are not that different from those of us still human. All of my entourage likely feared the same things, and it would not surprise me if Gustav himself has similar misgivings. Not to mention that he did still have a soul, which was sort of surprising. I was getting very cynical and it kind of hurt my feelings to have this realization about myself. It was easy for me to be selfish and self-centered. I was at least self-aware enough to realize this. I could blame it on being an only daughter, or on the generation to which I was born as so many seem to want to do. Or, I’m sure, so many other things if I spent the time to look. In reality I think it is simple human nature. Empathy was also human nature, and when we stopped looking inside for a bit and started looking at others, we could see how we hurt those around us without even realizing it.
