Hurting and confused, she wanted no part of his comfort or advice. In truth, she wasn’t sure how to deal with her husband. She was such a contrast of emotions and thoughts. One minute she was certain Brad was right and that God would make their situation different, and in the next minute she was hopelessly mired down with a sense of discouragement that went clear to the bone. Without the strength to fight it, a depression overcame Tess in such a manner that she found little interest in anything. Her work suffered as she allowed call after call to go unanswered. When the answering machine finally filled up, Tess simply removed the tape and turned off the machine. She didn’t care what happened. In her heart, Tess knew she was blaming Brad for her pain. He held responsibility, but only marginally behind the blame she assigned to God. Why wasn’t God fixing things? Where was the peace He promised? Her anger and sorrow, combined with the guilt she felt for alienating her heavenly Father, only added to her depression.
