I haven’t been here since Jeremy let me sleep in his bed. I spend a long time staring out the window at the darkened sea. In a way, returning feels somewhat like what Jeremy must have experienced, entering his mother’s loft. We both went back to the place where things began. Him, many years ago. Me, only months. But the distance that spans that time, for me, seems enormous. I trace my hand over the lone marble pillar. How many nights had I spent in the dark with it as my only companion? Now, it feels almost like a lost friend. I walk to the edge of my former perimeter. When I stared out at the darkness before, what did I imagine lay past the blackened veil? Love? Life? Or was it… Insanity? I am losing my mind. I must be, to think that I can love Jeremy Stonehart. The episode today is another glimpse of the poisoned waters of my mind. Who’s at fault here? Jeremy? Are these visions, these hallucinations coming because of the collar? Is the collar what made Paul into who he is? Or was it the drugs?
What do You think about Uncovering You 9: Liberation?
