She really likes it and … When I was talking to Ally, I felt this push to kiss her. Only we were just talking. I’m not ready to kiss her yet, but Lizzie was always trying to get me to move faster. Spencer and I were in his car and … Every list I write for Dr. Reynolds sounds stupider than the last, so I just keep crossing things out. I flip the paper over. My writing is small and spidery and I don’t really have the courage to title it. But it’s a new list of things about Ally. I’m embarrassed to put anything down on paper, but in the same way that writing my Lizzie-list makes all of the strange things happening more real, making a list of things about Ally makes that more real too. Some of the things I’ve written down are things I’ve just learned. Some are things that I’ve known all along from watching her over the past year and all of them make me happy. Baseball! She smells like vanilla.
