It wasn’t as if she would’ve minded Aydin carrying her under different circumstances. It wasn’t as if she wasn’t just as attracted to him. Maybe she was even a little more drawn to him in some ways than she was Colwin, although that would be a hard call. Then again, she got the same silent treatment from Aydin that she did from Colwin. It wasn’t quite as noticeable because Colwin was more outgoing—usually—and Aydin tended to be introspective anyway, but she felt it. She would’ve liked to have convinced herself that she was just imagining it, but unfortunately neither one of them left her in any doubt that they were anxious to put as much distance between them as possible and were sorry circumstances, and their sense of responsibility, wouldn’t allow them to simply dump her and leave. Resentment slowly usurped her feelings of guilt over it. It wasn’t as if she’d refused to have sex with them! Well, she supposed it might have sounded like that when she’d made it clear she didn’t want to get pregnant, but Aydin had pulled out, damn it!
