To lie in bed wakeful had always been intolerable to him. He could manage with little sleep, but that was invariably sound. Now he swung his legs out of bed, reached for his dressing gown and walked over to the window. He would watch the sun rise over the North Sea. He thought back over the last few hours, the acknowledged relief of talking to Alice, the knowledge that nothing shocked her, nothing surprised her, that everything he did, if not right in her eyes, was judged by a different standard from the one she rigorously applied to the rest of her life. The secret that lay between them, those minutes when he had held her shaking body against the tree trunk and stared into her eyes, compelling obedience, had bound them with a cord so strong that it couldn’t be frayed, either by the enormity of their shared guilty secret, or by the small rubs of living together. And yet they had never spoken of their father’s death. He didn’t know whether Alice ever thought of it or whether the trauma had erased it from her mind, so that she now believed the version he had formulated, had taken the lie into her unconscious and made it her truth.
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