Too much of his time is spent in morbid contemplation. Struggling to find value and worth in his life, Dean tries to focus his mind on days that were good—all those times when he truly did feel in love with Geoffrey and believed he wanted to be with him. Today, his thoughts are centered on the first time he lay down with Geoffrey. This was a time of bonding, an awakening and strengthening of their love. Dean, desperately needing to feel this way again, indulges in the memory of their second anniversary. Knowing, on this day, Seroxat isn’t enough, Dean takes two milligrams of Zolam, allowing its altering powers to stupefy him. His mind, feeling free now, contemplates his and Geoffrey’s second anniversary. ***** Twenty years ago, as it is today, The Cattle Ranch was nestled in the rolling hills and forests of Quadrant Three. As well as pasturing their livestock (horses, cattle), Jake Matonabee and Jeremy Stoker, owners and proprietors, cut numerous riding trails across their land for paid ranch guests.
