A normal thing. It’s perfectly normal for Ryan to be attracted to tall, built guys with bodies like well-oiled machines. And with actual oil on those glistening muscles, because Javier is a car mechanic and walks around in a tank top, his bare arms gleaming with sweat and engine lube. It’s absolutely, utterly normal. Ryan doesn’t even question it – pays no attention to it – because it’s another dead-end fixation that won’t go anywhere. It’s not like it’s even a crush. It’s just this… thing, that’s all. A thing makes Ryan wonder what it would be like if Javier folded him in half and fucked him silly, fucked him till he was making the sorts of sounds that would embarrass him to remember, later. Just a thing. The fact that Javier is Pete’s deadbeat dad is something Ryan tries not to think about, because Pete is Ryan’s best friend and practically his brother. Thankfully, Ryan mostly succeeds in not thinking about it, because his ability to think gets severely derailed when Javier’s around, and Ryan ends up stuttering like someone short-circuited his brain.
What do You think about In The Blaze Of His Hungers?
