Telling herself that it was just a quick look, only curiosity, she checked medical websites, just as she had done years ago, for reasons why a woman did not conceive again after the successful and easy birth of a first child. Maybe there would be new research? Maybe things had changed? But the information was still overwhelming and inconclusive. They would need tests, both of them, just as the doctor had suggested years ago. And Scott would not agree to tests—she was certain of that. He would say it was too late. He would say those days were over. One fact occurred and reoccurred on every medical website—it was more difficult for a woman to conceive after the age of forty. Kat had reached her fortieth birthday just five days after Chris’s death. A birthday that, numb with grief, Kat and Scott had not celebrated, had barely acknowledged. She sighed, closing her eyes. She really was losing her grip. It was ridiculous to think like this. It was insane to even consider having another child.
