There’s Adam, who belts out lyrics while working the crowd. There’s Mike, who pounds at the drums with his hands and the pedals with his feet. There are Shawn and Kit, who pretend to be focused on the performance instead of each other—whatever that’s about. And there’s me, trying to keep the beat while Dee is standing offstage in a tiny black skirt that I swear to God is riding higher and higher every time I look her way. Between songs, I reach behind my guitar to shift myself inside my jeans, knowing it’s a lost cause. She gives me a little smirk, and my answering groan is lost to the screams of the crowd. Mike’s drumsticks start the next song, and I turn my attention back to the pit. Adam has it fired up tonight, and the waves are rolling in a storm that makes my skin hum. Under the searing blue and green lights, my T-shirt is clinging to the sheen of sweat on my skin and my blood is boiling hot. My bass pours through Mayhem’s massive speakers, and my entire body bounces with the beat.
