I remembered all of the love between us. All the happiness he brought to my life. How special he made me feel. I realized in that moment, that I did want to marry Cody. I wanted to be his wife more than I may have wanted anything else. I wanted to spend my life with the man I had so quickly and passionately grown to love. When I got back to Phoenix, I had one mission. I needed to see Cody and tell him how I felt. I needed to tell him that I wanted to marry him. Lizzie agreed to watch Pugsy for me if I paid her fifty dollars a day. Since I was only going a few days, I felt okay about giving her the extra money. It was funny that her moral objections to my younger boyfriend lessened in proportion to the amount of cash I was willing to put on the table. The two-hour drive seemed to take ten hours. I was so anxious to see Cody. I knew I had to do whatever it took to get him back. I didn’t know how I could ever have any happiness without him.
