He kept his distance on the trip over to Paris, barely speaking a word to her, keeping himself busy with his laptop, as if they were two strangers travelling together. But that was fine by her as she needed time to regroup. It was becoming confusing to be playing one role while feeling something else. Feeling was something she wasn’t used to doing. Feeling was dangerous. Attachment was dangerous. Bonding was dangerous. She could be physical with someone without emotional engagement. Of course she could. Men did it all the time. Sex was a physical need like any other. She was not going to be stupid and fall in love. Not with James. Not with the one man who would never love her back. Why would he? She had all but destroyed his precious family. She knew he wasn’t close to his father, but a relationship with her was only going to make his relationship with him so much worse. His mother, Louise, might accept her but even that was stretching a dream way too far.
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